Speaking In Tongues

Basi wala man gid sing kaayuhan
dito sa balat ng lupa. Tibaad an 
tanan nga mga bagay sa kalibutan 
waay man sing kamanungdanan.

Human as you are, you doubt a lot of things, including the purpose of your existence or more particularly your happiness. You realize now that maybe life is futile. All efforts you have been making will not make sense in the future. You stop for a while and start asking—what if?

Baad dai mo man kinahanglan matultulan
an mga pulong sang kamatuoran, if at all.
Is it not that you must live the very words 
na inspired ni Bro & not just read about him?

In the past you read books and stuff so they could tell you how to live well, at least. But now every busyness you have occupied yourself with, all the times you have spent your life doing them do not just seem to add up. One day, you just started seeking some Truth in your own little truths. You see that hardly anything convinces you. So you further question—what if your truths may not all be true? What is better to do?

Kay you’d just tend to ask more questions 
re this Prince of Peace —the way, truth, life—
than just easily tag a photo of him.

It is your faith in Something that bothers you every night in your bed. Despite all the efforts to shelve it, questions whether it is worth it just don’t go away. It is not enough for you to simply believe. You do not really know what you’ve believed in for so long. You cannot just believe. You doubt and these doubts make your life difficult. 

Basi simpli sana man an boot silingon 
sang mga sugilanon sa ginatawag 
nga salvation history: An aton kaluwasan 
Daw nabal-an na man kahit noon pa 
ng sabi nila’y isang bula-an na poeta:
“Have Come, Am Here,” sabi niya.

It is the things you used to believe in that you don’t believe anymore. Your faith now is something you question. You ask of the time when you really believed.

You take the advice of those who came before you. They must have been faced the same question as you are and must have pondered their whole lives deciphering for some sensible answers. You consider someone who was haunted the same question, for one:

Okun basi sakto gid man si San Agustin—
“My soul is restless” kuno “until it rests 
in thee...” or something to that effect.

You seek to forget all these worries you have. To you they do not matter. “Live relaxed”—as an ad tells you, you just take things easy. You take courage to let things pass, and you seek not to doubt. You wonder if you can put all these doubts in a disposable bag, and wait for the garbage man to take them away. Reduce—simplify—reconsider?

Bakong sabi ta simpli man lang?
An hapot eu ni, in ur lyf, wer &
wen & how ds He take efkt?

Garo palan bulong, may taking effect; 
garo ordinance, may effect ti vi ty.

You wonder when you’ll stop rationalizing things. When you will know some things should be understood not with your head but with your heart. You ask why a strange phrase always sounds so cliché.

Bakong an sabi daa sana man simpli? Uni.
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